LOVE versus MIND

I kept on reminiscing how happy I was from the time we met till we fall in love.

I was unaware and blind of your flaws and imperfections and truth that were not meant to be.

I kept on inducing our love fighting the things I thought to be right, but it’s visible; unacceptable.

I can’t carry on; it’s very hard like a ton of stones smashing my heart till I stop on breathing.

I forbid the life that I may have and neglect the happiness I may felt with somebody else.

But with you I once had the most unforgettable experience in life, admittedly yes I have.

My feelings are fighting for what is a must and what’s mustn’t, for can I live this life or not?

Feels so strange, heart versus mind; whom to decide?

I wish at this moment my eyes shut down and lead me to bed to rest my painful heart.

But as I close it I see you and the other side of life that I want; should I still fight?

Love versus reality, these things is so hard; I can’t hold on, you kept on dragging me on.

What must I do? Which is to be kept and followed? Is it you or my wants?

Were both hurting I know and more pain that’s felt is in you; I apologize, I can’t just let you know.

Not yet for it’s not the right time, I don’t want to drag you on to curse and sadness.

The fact is I’m still afraid that’s when I start telling you, your teary eyes may lead me back.

I can’t, love versus mind; I may still listen to my heart and forget what I want.

Heart versus mind, I’m so ashamed; why I am the one who always hurt you? Why not you?

You’re so contented of your life but dear love I am not, I want more.

Searching for that life in exchange of losing you and never gonna bring you back;

What’s more important? Oh God please take away my mind and let me follow my heart.