TELL ME WHY?

Tell me why, the sun doesn’t shine anymore?

I lost faith; life became dimmer and dimmer

Tell me why, feelings suddenly changed?

Just like a ray of sun swept by the clouds.



Tell me why a plan suddenly flies?

Is it I or just our incompatibility?

The door is always closed and locked.

In these four cornered walls painted plainly in black.



Feeling less and cold from time to time

Visibly blind by promises that’s untrue;

Tell me why such wonderful world is gone?

Strangers we are in the streets of the night.



Where’s forever and always?

Blown by winter breeze, freezing

Tell me why, it just turns into ashes?

What are left are the carved of promises.

LOVE versus MIND

I kept on reminiscing how happy I was from the time we met till we fall in love.

I was unaware and blind of your flaws and imperfections and truth that were not meant to be.

I kept on inducing our love fighting the things I thought to be right, but it’s visible; unacceptable.

I can’t carry on; it’s very hard like a ton of stones smashing my heart till I stop on breathing.

I forbid the life that I may have and neglect the happiness I may felt with somebody else.

But with you I once had the most unforgettable experience in life, admittedly yes I have.

My feelings are fighting for what is a must and what’s mustn’t, for can I live this life or not?

Feels so strange, heart versus mind; whom to decide?

I wish at this moment my eyes shut down and lead me to bed to rest my painful heart.

But as I close it I see you and the other side of life that I want; should I still fight?

Love versus reality, these things is so hard; I can’t hold on, you kept on dragging me on.

What must I do? Which is to be kept and followed? Is it you or my wants?

Were both hurting I know and more pain that’s felt is in you; I apologize, I can’t just let you know.

Not yet for it’s not the right time, I don’t want to drag you on to curse and sadness.

The fact is I’m still afraid that’s when I start telling you, your teary eyes may lead me back.

I can’t, love versus mind; I may still listen to my heart and forget what I want.

Heart versus mind, I’m so ashamed; why I am the one who always hurt you? Why not you?

You’re so contented of your life but dear love I am not, I want more.

Searching for that life in exchange of losing you and never gonna bring you back;

What’s more important? Oh God please take away my mind and let me follow my heart.

FEAR

Near the ocean, feeling the breeze of autumn air

The calmness of place disrupted by bird’s voices

Under the tree that shaded me from the sun

These brown eyes glimpse a shadow that afternoon.

I felt scared, heats climbing up my cheeks

The cold breeze is disappearing

The sun hides from the clouds, what’s left is me

Under that shaded tree I lean my fears.

Trembling while standing my vivid mind starts to explore

Closed eyes trying to transcend the fears inside

Inescapable of reality, I can do nothing

But accept the truth; your not part of me.

CYCLE

On a gloomy afternoon, I glance upon you,

Those eyes were meaningful and mysterious;

I started to dream and been inspired by you,

Glorious moments happened so fast.

What we have lasted so far till now,

Thinking of the future that you’re the one;

We planned, heart and mind was settled,

But glaring at my side I saw this other man.

He's so charming, smiles so inducing

I can’t help myself but to stare at him and dream;

He's the one I've wished for but I cant,

I’m with you, behind these hindering walls.

I accepted you for who you are,

But for those years we've been together;

Fights doesn’t stop, I’m still longing for more,

Why? I guess I don’t love you that much.

I don’t love you because you made me feel that,

Forbids me all the way, made me blind;

I rejected the promising hand that offers,

A life of happiness.. Is where I should be.

With him, life is full of excitement,

I am thrilled to wake up everyday;

And to live with my dreams,

Inspired and life is been regained.

These complicated cycle of my life,

I am unsure to where I may be;

He kept on chasing, I am for Him,

It’s not clear, where should I end?