TELL ME WHY?

Tell me why, the sun doesn’t shine anymore?

I lost faith; life became dimmer and dimmer

Tell me why, feelings suddenly changed?

Just like a ray of sun swept by the clouds.



Tell me why a plan suddenly flies?

Is it I or just our incompatibility?

The door is always closed and locked.

In these four cornered walls painted plainly in black.



Feeling less and cold from time to time

Visibly blind by promises that’s untrue;

Tell me why such wonderful world is gone?

Strangers we are in the streets of the night.



Where’s forever and always?

Blown by winter breeze, freezing

Tell me why, it just turns into ashes?

What are left are the carved of promises.

LOVE versus MIND

I kept on reminiscing how happy I was from the time we met till we fall in love.

I was unaware and blind of your flaws and imperfections and truth that were not meant to be.

I kept on inducing our love fighting the things I thought to be right, but it’s visible; unacceptable.

I can’t carry on; it’s very hard like a ton of stones smashing my heart till I stop on breathing.

I forbid the life that I may have and neglect the happiness I may felt with somebody else.

But with you I once had the most unforgettable experience in life, admittedly yes I have.

My feelings are fighting for what is a must and what’s mustn’t, for can I live this life or not?

Feels so strange, heart versus mind; whom to decide?

I wish at this moment my eyes shut down and lead me to bed to rest my painful heart.

But as I close it I see you and the other side of life that I want; should I still fight?

Love versus reality, these things is so hard; I can’t hold on, you kept on dragging me on.

What must I do? Which is to be kept and followed? Is it you or my wants?

Were both hurting I know and more pain that’s felt is in you; I apologize, I can’t just let you know.

Not yet for it’s not the right time, I don’t want to drag you on to curse and sadness.

The fact is I’m still afraid that’s when I start telling you, your teary eyes may lead me back.

I can’t, love versus mind; I may still listen to my heart and forget what I want.

Heart versus mind, I’m so ashamed; why I am the one who always hurt you? Why not you?

You’re so contented of your life but dear love I am not, I want more.

Searching for that life in exchange of losing you and never gonna bring you back;

What’s more important? Oh God please take away my mind and let me follow my heart.

FEAR

Near the ocean, feeling the breeze of autumn air

The calmness of place disrupted by bird’s voices

Under the tree that shaded me from the sun

These brown eyes glimpse a shadow that afternoon.

I felt scared, heats climbing up my cheeks

The cold breeze is disappearing

The sun hides from the clouds, what’s left is me

Under that shaded tree I lean my fears.

Trembling while standing my vivid mind starts to explore

Closed eyes trying to transcend the fears inside

Inescapable of reality, I can do nothing

But accept the truth; your not part of me.

CYCLE

On a gloomy afternoon, I glance upon you,

Those eyes were meaningful and mysterious;

I started to dream and been inspired by you,

Glorious moments happened so fast.

What we have lasted so far till now,

Thinking of the future that you’re the one;

We planned, heart and mind was settled,

But glaring at my side I saw this other man.

He's so charming, smiles so inducing

I can’t help myself but to stare at him and dream;

He's the one I've wished for but I cant,

I’m with you, behind these hindering walls.

I accepted you for who you are,

But for those years we've been together;

Fights doesn’t stop, I’m still longing for more,

Why? I guess I don’t love you that much.

I don’t love you because you made me feel that,

Forbids me all the way, made me blind;

I rejected the promising hand that offers,

A life of happiness.. Is where I should be.

With him, life is full of excitement,

I am thrilled to wake up everyday;

And to live with my dreams,

Inspired and life is been regained.

These complicated cycle of my life,

I am unsure to where I may be;

He kept on chasing, I am for Him,

It’s not clear, where should I end?

God Lead me to you

I never find true happiness in my life,
I always picked the wrong path.
I once searched for who I am
Yet cant find myself.
And then i realize and prayed so hard,
Asking Him am i meant to be this way?
A tiny voice whispers in my heart;
Speaks of faith, wisdom and love.

He made me understand the meaning of my existence
He showed me to whom i belong.
He made me realized that somewhere, somehow, someone needed me so long
Then along the way a shiny light hits upon you;
More than a bowl of gold, indeed you are a treasure
You are the path i must cross
Cause God lead me to you...

So easy yet so hard

Loving you is the easiest way I know
Given everything that your worthy of
I surrendered my heart for you in my fullest
We made each day worth remembering.

I can’t count the laughter we shared
Problems that confused us in some ways;
Make up moments after huge arguments
Making love just to wake the flame of wanting.

Body, heart and soul, we are one
United by this thing called love
Lost souls of the ancient world
Now were reincarnated to renew our affection.

But sometimes being together is not enough
We may not stay as lover my love;
We need to be with each other forever
Vested by God’s grace, we must live and love till death.

It’s a matter of wanting, a matter of love
This world were in is hiding in its mask
My mind is very complex, my heart is mourning
Everything’s difficult and unfair.

If loving you is the easiest way I know
Why is it difficult for us to pursue?
With our dreams and goals,
And the lives we’re craving for.

It’s so hard to start, to go and to plan,
The life we want is unreachable.
We have the time but a block of hindrance,
Our closeness is tearing us apart.

The thoughts of leaving you just for myself,
Puts me in grief and in deeper pain.
How can we survive if no one is willing?
Tell me my love; will ever our future start?

Someone I love on the Net

Beyond this two screens,
A million miles away;
Two hearts of different souls,
Bind with one simple goal.

Someone to love that could only bring happiness,
Someone to share my life with;
Someone to comfort with embraces,
Someone that can wake the passion.

Someone to cherish every moment,
We just want these tender kisses;
How can we? How could it be?
You’re million miles away from me.

I am curious if how your lip taste?
How comforting your body is whenever I‘m cold;
How long will this feeling last?
You’re in Illinois; I’m in my Asian land.

It’s too difficult to fall in love on the net,
Too complications and expectations;
I wish to wake up being with him someday,
He’s the reason for the completeness of my life

You changed me

I was feeling alone and lonely,
For some reasons I’m lost;
I’ve been waiting for so long
Yet still failed.
I don’t know where must I belong.

Suddenly, my world changed and days spark,
Every minute and second of my life
Started to blossom.
The smile and extraordinary conversation,
Awakens my emotion.

You can easily get my thoughts
And the feeling is unexplainable.
Every word you speak,
Gently flows into my heart;
I started to dream about us.

Being with you emotionally,
Makes everyday more meaningful;
We’re far yet everything’s complete,
There’s no other love I felt ever since you came.
We have these moments to share forever.

It’s hard to hide this feeling,
Your aware I know, someday it will burst;
When that day comes I hope this will not be forbidden.
What I have for you is pure,
I mean it; this love is in its depth.